Firstly, I want to thank you because of you, I learnt how to be a better person for someone else. I learnt more about myself and how I should love someone, so when I finally find her, I can treat her right. I learnt how to be myself and treat the one I love better than before. No one knows how to love since we were born but we learn and pick up experiences along the way. So I guess I have to thank the people that entered and exited my life because I might not be the same person I am today if it wasn’t for you.
I am Me.
I found out a lot about myself during these period because you get to know yourself better. Like from your likes and dislikes to other things like your character and personality and step by step, you tend to feel that you are moving towards the person of your dreams.
You can’t expect people to love you if you don’t love yourself.
Is what I would constantly remind myself of and I learnt that the hard way. In the past, I often find myself loving someone too much to a point where I feel that I somehow lost myself during the course of the relationship. I think for everyone except for myself and put everyone’s interest before mine. It was horrible and I hated myself for it because it felt like I locked myself up in a corner of my mind and struggling to break free. I couldn’t breathe and had to constantly be fighting to catch my breath. After a few months, I finally came true to myself and got myself out. I started to think for myself and see the truth that I wasn’t happy pretending to be someone I’m not for somebody else.
That was one of the many lessons I picked up while loving someone in the past and I think that I became a better person as a result of it. Now that I look back at all of the relationship that I have been through, I guess I have to really thank them because…
Somehow, someway… They will lead me to find the one that was meant for me.
and because I feel that I am a better person now, I feel that I can finally love her right this time.
Thank you. I will be cherishing her from now on.