The day when you finally get it. 

There will come a day when everything comes in place; all the big and little pieces fix themselves and together they form a perfect picture. As most of you already know, I proposed to my girlfriend not long ago and it was everything that people said it to be. 

Nerve wrecking, surprises, tears of joy; all of these building up to one word. When that word became the most important word in your dictionary, you know that you finally got it; you found the answer that you have been looking for your whole life. 

Many would understand that something so beautiful and precious like this don’t come easy. Sometimes it depends on luck, timing and chemistry. Through failed experiences in love, we gain and bring it forward with us. It shows that you accepted the past and go on to receive the future. However, sadly speaking, that cannot be said for all of us. 

Some of us are stuck in the past and finding it difficult to move on; or rather they won’t let themselves move forward. Most of us have a hard time accepting and moving on because we fail to see how everything could turn for the better, stuck thinking that that was the best they could ever get or deserve. Now I’m telling you that it is not true. 

You deserve better if you wish for better. 

Don’t ever put your happiness in another’s hand; or rather allow people to make you happy but don’t give them the right to take it away. Yes we will be sad, yes we will feel down but that does not stop us from choosing what we think we deserve. If you believe that you deserve to be happy, then who in the world out there can tell you otherwise. 

You make your own choices so learn to live with them. 

It’s been a while since I chose sadness. It doesn’t mean that I would feel sad every now and then or rather I would not allow myself to brood over it for a long time. 

We always deserve so much more. We deserve to be happy. We deserve to make our choices. Stop feeling sorry for yourself and pick up all these shit and move on. 

Onwards to better days ahead. 

I found the one. 

07/07/2017

That was the day where two hearts got connected as one; the butterflies went out of control; and I got down on one knee and asked the most important question of my life:

“Will you marry me?”

It didn’t take me much effort to figure out that she was the one for me. Every little things just comes together; it just adds up together; slowly but surely that’s how I know that she is the one. 

There so many things I can say about her; kind, sweet, loving, understanding, and the list goes on and on. But I guess the thing I love the most is how well we fit together as one. That feeling when you complete a puzzle; the lyrics to complete your song; the other half of me. 

Both of us been through a lot individually before we met. From the countless heartbreaks and relationships we been through, the missteps that we took, the experiences that we gained and lesson that we learnt; everything that happened brought me to where I am today. I would say that the journey wasn’t an easy one and it sure wasn’t the simplest one but I’m glad I got there in the end. 

Everyone who knows me knows that I’m a helpless romantic. Trying my best to have everything as sweet as possible and keeping the spark between us everlasting. And so when I decided to propose to my girlfriend, I wanted to make it the best one for her. It all started in late May this year and I started with shopping for the ring and planning for that day. Choosing the date wasn’t much of a thought as I decided on 7th July 2017 as our parents had theirs on 8th August and 9th September respectively. 

As I wanted to keep it a secret, I only revealed my plans to a few of my closest friends and people that I needed help from for my proposal. Through a few weeks of shopping and planning, it was pretty hard for me to contain my excitement. I kept it private and intimate with a simple design of balloons, fairy lights, flowers and most importantly the ring. 

In the end, the moment arrived. I told her my feelings and how I feel about us. She was shocked as I took a step back and got down on one knee as I uttered the following words:

“Germaine Chee, will you marry me?

Her face was in total shock which proved how well I hid it from her and it took her a good few seconds for her to reply a resounding “yes“. We hugged and kissed as I placed the over-sized ring into her extremely slim finger. After which we got to our photo shoot and order delivery for dinner. I popped a champagne to celebrate and damn wasn’t that a night to remember. 

To be honest, I think that we are still young and have a long way in front of us. The road ahead may be difficult for us but whenever I feel her presence beside me, I know that I have the strength to carry on. So who cares if the road ahead would be rough and tough for us, as long as I’m holding her hands, I feel that there’s nothing we can’t face together. I guess that’s the power of love. 

And I finally can say it out loud: “I found the one.”

Halfway

It’s been a while…

We are heading almost halfway through 2017 and it seems that time is moving way too fast. With each passing days, it just makes me feel that I don’t want to grow up so quickly. There’s still so many things to do, so many wonders left to be discovered and here I am, struggling to survive with my daily work. 

Things haven’t been good at work I guess but at least I have awesome colleagues to help me with my day to day agony. Laughter is always the best medicine for sure. Still in the process of looking out for a new opportunity for me but to no avail. However, I’m still trying my best so fingers crossed! 

It’s turning a year soon; a year since I met the most wonderful person that makes me feel complete. It’s still amazing looking back to how far we have come. Each and everyday was filled with bliss and I’m not even kidding. This is the first time that I felt that loving someone could be this easy. Every text, every hug, every kiss, makes me feel like it’s our first and a smile would just light up. The lingering feeling you get when you part ways for the night. The I-Miss-You kind of hugs you get when you haven’t seen each other in a while. Anything good or bad, she is there to listen to your everyday adventure. Always giving you the strength to carry on. 

Love should always be this easy when it’s with the right one. 

I would always think that this kind of love doesn’t exist, only in stories or dramas. But now that I have experienced it for myself, I don’t want to let go. This is what I always imagined my love would be and she is everything that I wished for. 

How lucky am I to meet someone like her. How lucky am I to get to experience this kind of love. How lucky am I to love someone so perfect like her. 

To the many more years ahead of us. Thank you. 

Twenty Sixteen

LIke the most of us, 2016 has been full of ups and downs. Some of us experienced probably some of the happiest moments in their entire life while others might have a hell of a time surviving. Let’s just remember to keep loving and be kind to one another.

2016 is going down to be one of my most memorable and happiest time so far; the best being able to meet the love of my life but more about that later. In the beginning of the year, I was pretty much stuck with my direction in life. What do I do from here onwards? Am I really going to continue with this path? What is the best path for me to take right now? All these questions inside my head left unanswered and waiting for one day when it just pops right in. It was full of uncertainty and changes with people coming in and out of my life, things happening one after another and the stress of trying to keep up with life itself.

Working as a financial planner does have it perks where I can organize my time accordingly and commission is pretty good I have to admit. However, my passion died down along with the issues I faced at that point in time. I started putting my passion elsewhere and that was to be a tutor. This will have to go down as one of the best decision that I made for myself as my passion or rather ‘the fire within me’ lit up when I was teaching. With every student I have, with every lesson that I taught, seeing them grow and improve lesson by lesson, is something rewarding to me and may I say one of my proudest moments in my life. Be it when you received a thank you message, a present, or just a simple smile can make my day a whole lot better. One of the most memorable student that I taught have to be this primary 4 boy.

When I first took on this role as his tutor, I have to admit that I have no idea how do I even begin. There was no foundation and things weren’t looking all that pleasant at all. We struggled together to find the best way for him to learn and study. Fair enough, through all those hard work and effort we put in together, he improved from a 30 plus student to a 74 marks student for his end of year examinations. Seeing that smile on both his mother and his face, I felt that all the tough times were all worth it; all of that in exchange for that one single moment. It reminded me of the time when I had tuition for my A-maths; 32 marks to 76 by the end of the year. It just felt extra special when I know that I changed someone’s life for the better.

Soon, my career took a turn for the better when I was offered a job at a bank and it really helped as I was at that point in time where I have no idea what direction am I suppose to head to. It was a compliance role and I am still enjoying the thrill of a challenging job. There were times where it is stress and tiring, but I knew that I just have hold on and things will fall into place. I have the pleasure of meeting a bunch of colleagues that made my everyday in the office a happy one and still thankful of all the care and concern they have been showing since day 1.

2016 was a year of romance for me when I have dated for quite a while and it just did not feel particularly right for me. That was until I met her. She brought the smiles into my life without much effort and can always put up with my weirdness or uniqueness which I like to call it. Have you ever feel that you don’t have to pretend to be anything or anyone and he/she just love you for who you are. That’s true love my friends. Nothing in the world feels better than knowing that you found the love of your life.

From her constant encouragements, loving messages, hugs and kisses to the serious situation when we can openly talk about our feelings, anything and everything felt better when you are with the right one. Things are just that simple. It makes me feel stupid feeling the need to hide my feelings in my past relationships. I am truly blessed and delighted that I got to meet someone so amazing like her.

That will be the summary of my 2016 as I included most of my most happening moments this year. Ushering in the new year with the people I surround myself with will be the happiest I have ever felt in a very long time. To think that everything just flew past us again, I am a year older next year. Time to be wiser, do what I know I can do best and show the world what I can do. Embrace 2017 and hope that things continues to run smoothly.

Thank you for those that I met, those that helped me, those that embraced me, those that advised me, those that have been there for me and those that love me. Without you, there would have never be me. 

Onwards… Time to start off a new page in my book. Onwards to 2017.

Rule 1: Remember to always love yourself

Anyone that knows me will know my number 1 rule in life: Remember to always love yourself. This means to not lose yourself; your likes and dislikes, your character, your habits, everything that makes you… you. 

Everytime someone new enters our lives, some of us tend to act differently and sometimes it just makes you feel like it’s harder to breathe. Be it a friendship or relationship, I always believe that being yourself attracts the right people to enter your life. If they don’t like the real you, then maybe they are not meant to be in your life after all. Don’t let people’s judgement of you affect you to a certain extent. We take in things that will make us change for the better and not change because the other party wants us to. There is a difference. You’d change because you know that it’s for the better, and hence the change, but not change because people want you to.

Your life isn’t meant to live for others and base on what they think. It’s called your life for a reason. People come and people go in life. That’s why breakups happen, that’s why friendship or bonds can break, that’s why we always find fault in ourselves when such things happen. I was once like this; pretending to be someone I’m not and it wasn’t the easiest of life I chose for myself. But I’m also glad at the same time because through that lesson, I grew to be more confident and started loving who I am more. 

Loving yourself and being yourself will always attract the right kind of people to stay in your life. 

Don’t change for others. Change only for yourself. 

Being yourself will attract people who likes you for who you are and never forget that. There will always be people who love you for who you are. Be true to yourself and have confidence. Because that’s how true friendships/relationship happens; when we are ourselves.

Everything begins when you start to learn how to love yourself. Just be selfish for once and learn more about you. If you don’t even learn to love yourself then how do you expect others to love you. 

The day that I was born

6th September 1993

This was the day that I was brought into this world and through my 23 years of life here, I had my fair share of ups and downs, happiness and pain. As you can probably tell, I just celebrated my birthday a few days back and man was it one of the best birthdays ever. I went on a trip to Bangkok with my girlfriend for a nice 4 days getaway, got back just in time to celebrate it with my love ones. Although it was just a simple steamboat dinner, but I am just glad that everyone got together that night to celebrate my birthday.

A lot had happened since the last time that I blogged and maybe I could just add a little things to update. I am still working in a bank and as a part time tutor so basically I am working my whole Monday to Sunday. Don’t ask me how do I do this because I have literally no idea how am I doing this myself but one thing is for sure, it is a damn tiring life. My 6 months contract is about to end in around 2 months and I have been trying to find myself a new place to start at. I decided to postpone my studies once again because I don’t want my parents to have that financial burden with me going to university so I figured that I should save up money and earn more while I can during this period and pay for my studies next year.

So that is basically it for what happened recently in my work life. But outside from all the piles of work and stress, I have the people that cares for me and frankly, they are the reason that I am still hanging on every day.

Recently, I got to fly overseas with my girlfriend to Bangkok to enjoy a short trip just before my birthday and it was a blast. We had so much fun travelling around and shopping of course. As a regular to Bangkok, I was able to bring her to places to eat and shop and just having her beside me just made the entire trip a whole lot sweeter. As it has been a long time since she went there, I brought her to the places that everyone should visit when they are there for the first time. From the places like, Chatuchuk Weekend market, Asiatique, Chinatown to the food and the milk teas, everything was just perfect. The hotel that we stayed in for our trip was at Centara Watergate.

Personally, I have stayed in some fantastic hotels and I have got to say that this could be ranked up there with those hotels. The first impression was that it is grand and the cleanliness is top notch. The staff service there is excellent as well as they greeted us with a glass of tea and cold towel each. One thing I did not really like about it would be the location of the hotel as I don’t find it really convenient and near to the town area. But the streets are always lively at night and it is always a good thing if you ever get hungry while heading back to the hotel.

We spent most of our money on food and our meals ranged from 800 baht to 70 baht per meal and I got to mention that the meal at Chinatown was the most satisfying yet. The whole meal cost around 700 baht which includes a tom yum soup, two fresh big ass oysters, some veggies and a big ass fish to cap everything off. It was filling for the both of us and we felt that the price was super worth.
To sum the trip up, it was a very enjoyable getaway with my girlfriend and I am just glad that I have this travelling experience with her. We tasted lots of food and went to places to experience different things and even bought a baby pizza to have on the cab on the way to the airport. We flew back on the day before my birthday so I can be surrounded with my family on my special day.

On my birthday, we had a small gathering where my grandparents visited to have a bbq/steamboat session. The whole table was filled with food prepared by my mum and it was just an awesome dinner. Nice and simple with everyone I love around me. I even got a present, balloon and a very sweet letter written by my special girl who I can’t thank enough of.

So that was basically it! How my story have been and of course I hope for better things to come. And of course lastly, I would like to thank the people who dropped me a message to wish me a happy birthday. I promise to always be appreciative of what I have and aim to become the best version of myself.

That’s a promise to myself

It’s been a long time

My dear blog.. Yes, I do realise that I haven’t been writing in recent weeks or months even but that doesn’t mean that I don’t miss writing here. I’m physically and mentally drained(when am I ever not) and working everyday(and I mean everyday) doesn’t help that case. But there’s always a positive at the very end of everyday, that’s to talk to the one that took my heart and breath away. 

Working in a bank is a super tough job and I don’t get how am I suppose to continue working like this when my school starts but I guess that’s the very reality in life; there’s never an easy way out and I suppose that I will come out stronger. 

Since young, I never once led an easy life. My whole life, I have been chasing and running towards something I can’t even see or touch. Pushing myself harder just because I don’t want to lead a life like this anymore. All these blood, sweat and tears that made me the way I am today, I don’t regret it one bit just because it shaped me to become someone who is strong mentally. 

But now, things have changed. I’m starting to learn things differently and just be contented with whatever I have. I have a roof over my head, I have food to eat, I have people that love and care about me, I have two jobs although it’s tough to balance at times; but all in all, I should be contented with everything that I have till now. Of course I still have the drive in me to continue to strive but I think part of my personal evolution, I have also learn to look at both sides of the coins; striving for the things that you want in life and appreciating what you have now. 

Everyone sees that either one side of the coin but a few sees both. Well, it’s never too late to be appreciative of what you have. Just don’t wait till it’s too late… You never know what life is going to bring on the plate next so let’s just enjoy the ride. 

On the side note, I recently just left the office at 10pm… I know.. Woah. Hahaha but it’s an experience nonetheless. I will write here soon but till then. 

The feeling of coming back home to someone who you love is always the best feeling ever.