The stranger.

I’m having a pretty bad day today and I can’t seemed to take my mind off it. Everyone keeps telling me that things will be better and keep going forward. I know that I should but sometimes, it’s just harder than it looks.

I encountered a rare opportunity today and I turned it down. Because of my beliefs and my determination to do better, I turned down this opportunity presented on a sliver platter. In my heart and mind, I believe I made the right choice. But deep down inside of me, I feel that there’s more than that; I feel that I was being played and it does not seem fair at all. All of a suddenly I feel like I’m a stranger all over again.

Lost and helpless. I randomly search for my answer and through the night searching, I can’t seems to find anything at all. What should my next move be in this long game of chess. Why are things turning out like this when I am feeling good about my life. You just have to kick me down again to see if I will be able to get up again.

And to count myself fortunate, I have always been able to get back up no matter. That’s part of who I am. I just don’t know if staying here is a waste of my time. And I don’t like it at all.

To be in a remote place, where the cold air blows, where there’s only darkness in the streets while you walked down that lonely path; it haunts you. But lucky for me, I had someone to comfort me at that time. Someone with a candle that walked beside me and let me know that I’m not alone.

I read one post online today and it struck me really hard. It was about this driver who was driving behind a driver who has just got his learner’s permit. He noticed a sign that indicated: “I’m learning and apologize for any delay caused.” Naturally, he was fine with it and was rather patient. Then he asked himself this tough question: “Will he be this patient if the person did not have that sign up.” And disappointingly, he knew his answer was a resounding no.

The lesson out of this was, everyone around is going through different kind of stuff in their everyday life. We don’t carry around signs like: “Recently divorce”, “I lost my child/someone close”, “I only have a few more months to live”, “feeling depressed”; all these signs around us. And would we really need to visualize those signs in order for us to be kind?

No. We don’t.

Just trying to be kinder to people. You will be surprised to see how it can help someone else’s day. Or maybe it can even help yours out.

Stranger or not, we deserve to be happy.

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A trip up to the mountain top

It was a cold, 5:30 morning when we touched down at TaoYuan Airport. I can still remember the cold breeze blowing through my hair and it is one of my favorite kind of weather. We went to take the next bus from TaoYuan to TaiChung as our first stop for this trip is CingJing.

CingJing is one of the places where time just seems to pass slower and the pace of everything around you just slows down. Waking up surrounded by old buildings, mountains and the fresh morning air just makes us love that place even more. For a city kid, I alng ways long for such experiences and still enjoy every second of it.

However, as we were traveling on their national holiday period, the traffic jam up to the mountain as crazy. We got a cab from TaiChung station to PuLi and then bus up to CingJing. It was a grueling 5 hours bus ride up to the mountain area as the congestion was so bad. We just slept throughout the whole ride up with lots of bumps and rocky roads along the way.

And finally we got off to our stay for the night: Sea of Cloud Vacation Villa. We quickly checked in and had a quick wash up before heading out to the sheep farm. The sheep farm was a walkable distance from our accommodation and I have to say that the view there is amazingly stunning. But our trip there was jeopardized by the weather conditions. It was drizzling, raining and pouring at different stages and it was difficult for anyone to move about in those conditions. So my advice would be go there early and check if there are any holidays or special occasion that might cause traffic congestion up to CingJing. Then see sheeps and have a horse/pony ride.

We left the farm near closing after taking a few pictures and heading up the mountain for some food as we were starving. We went up to have snacks at street stalls; mainly 盐酥鸡 and 甜不辣. We then went further up to have proper food which a bowl of local beef noodles. The broth was quite good with the strong beef taste and a filling portion of noodles. After which, we got to the nearest convenience store to get some snacks and drinks back to our apartment.

We had a pretty rough day 1 with most of our time spent traveling up to CingJing, but we the view there and the experience there made up for it. Can’t wait to blog again for day 2! Until then see the pictures below!

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The day that I was born

6th September 1993

This was the day that I was brought into this world and through my 23 years of life here, I had my fair share of ups and downs, happiness and pain. As you can probably tell, I just celebrated my birthday a few days back and man was it one of the best birthdays ever. I went on a trip to Bangkok with my girlfriend for a nice 4 days getaway, got back just in time to celebrate it with my love ones. Although it was just a simple steamboat dinner, but I am just glad that everyone got together that night to celebrate my birthday.

A lot had happened since the last time that I blogged and maybe I could just add a little things to update. I am still working in a bank and as a part time tutor so basically I am working my whole Monday to Sunday. Don’t ask me how do I do this because I have literally no idea how am I doing this myself but one thing is for sure, it is a damn tiring life. My 6 months contract is about to end in around 2 months and I have been trying to find myself a new place to start at. I decided to postpone my studies once again because I don’t want my parents to have that financial burden with me going to university so I figured that I should save up money and earn more while I can during this period and pay for my studies next year.

So that is basically it for what happened recently in my work life. But outside from all the piles of work and stress, I have the people that cares for me and frankly, they are the reason that I am still hanging on every day.

Recently, I got to fly overseas with my girlfriend to Bangkok to enjoy a short trip just before my birthday and it was a blast. We had so much fun travelling around and shopping of course. As a regular to Bangkok, I was able to bring her to places to eat and shop and just having her beside me just made the entire trip a whole lot sweeter. As it has been a long time since she went there, I brought her to the places that everyone should visit when they are there for the first time. From the places like, Chatuchuk Weekend market, Asiatique, Chinatown to the food and the milk teas, everything was just perfect. The hotel that we stayed in for our trip was at Centara Watergate.

Personally, I have stayed in some fantastic hotels and I have got to say that this could be ranked up there with those hotels. The first impression was that it is grand and the cleanliness is top notch. The staff service there is excellent as well as they greeted us with a glass of tea and cold towel each. One thing I did not really like about it would be the location of the hotel as I don’t find it really convenient and near to the town area. But the streets are always lively at night and it is always a good thing if you ever get hungry while heading back to the hotel.

We spent most of our money on food and our meals ranged from 800 baht to 70 baht per meal and I got to mention that the meal at Chinatown was the most satisfying yet. The whole meal cost around 700 baht which includes a tom yum soup, two fresh big ass oysters, some veggies and a big ass fish to cap everything off. It was filling for the both of us and we felt that the price was super worth.
To sum the trip up, it was a very enjoyable getaway with my girlfriend and I am just glad that I have this travelling experience with her. We tasted lots of food and went to places to experience different things and even bought a baby pizza to have on the cab on the way to the airport. We flew back on the day before my birthday so I can be surrounded with my family on my special day.

On my birthday, we had a small gathering where my grandparents visited to have a bbq/steamboat session. The whole table was filled with food prepared by my mum and it was just an awesome dinner. Nice and simple with everyone I love around me. I even got a present, balloon and a very sweet letter written by my special girl who I can’t thank enough of.

So that was basically it! How my story have been and of course I hope for better things to come. And of course lastly, I would like to thank the people who dropped me a message to wish me a happy birthday. I promise to always be appreciative of what I have and aim to become the best version of myself.

That’s a promise to myself

The star named Orion 

Days flew by in Bangkok and I don’t know if it’s a good or a bad thing. I enjoying myself but at the same time I’m getting tired out by waking up early and shopping and walking all day long. But one thing is for sure, I’m having a good time here.

There are some pictures that I’m sharing here on this space of mine that I took these days! Hope it looks nice 😅

I’m staying at Centara Grand Hotel with an outstanding room, facilities, view and staff and I’m really loving it here. Most of all, they have a sky bar which is one of the most famous one in Bangkok; Red Sky.

We went up to chill before my sister fly back to Singapore and the view was magificient. Breathtaking is what I would say. And sipping down my wine as we chat under the stars with such an amazing view is really speechless.

As I stop and look up in the sky, I saw something that reminded me of my past and I can’t help but smile. I told that someone about my favourite stars in the whole universe is the three stars in a line which is part of Orion. Why is it my favourite?

They are one of the most visible stars under the dark night sky and no matter where you are, you can almost see it. So me being a romantic, I told that someone that when you miss me, just look up in the sky and see the stars above. Know that we are looking at the same star under the same sky. 

Maybe we won’t feel far apart.  

So you can try… Well on second thought, don’t use my line. Be more creative people! Haha😂 anyway, enjoy the pictures that I took so far and look forward to more updates. 😁 cya

  
  
  
  
  
  

  
  
  
  

Days in Bangkok

Hello guys! Currently I am in the comfort of my very comfy bed in BKK and for some reasons I cant sleep… So let me just update my blog! 🙂

A trip is always nice because they allow the soul to be set free. A country that nobody knows of you and you can be whoever you want to be. Everything is put on reset and you begin anew. You meet new people, you have new experience, you eat new food and experience their culture. Although I have been to Bangkok for a few times in the past, it never fail to excite me whenever I am going on a trip especially when I feel that I needed something to bring me out of my suffering. You tend to heal better I guess? Or is that my own wishful wish?

Everyday has been walking around, shopping and eating which is what you do in Bangkok I guess. But there are also views and places to visit which might take your breathe away. The only regret is that I forgotten to take pictures for the first few days. I need to make a mental note to myself to remember to take more pictures!!

Update this page of mine soon. Till then 🙂

 

It’s a blessed birthday

*cue taytay’s song “22” *

Finally it was a day when the first digit of my age meets itself in the mirror😅 not really trying to like any part of this aging part. But yes… I did enjoy myself on my special day; the day when I was born into this world. 

Birthdays are something special to each and everyone of us as it not only tells you that it’s the day you were born but also an indication to the people around you to appreciate having you in their lives. Friends and family starts to give their blessed wishes and good will and of course you will feel blessed and appreciated. Be it a short and simple or one of those that runs a few pages long, they come from the heart of people around you. It doesn’t matter where or how I celebrate my birthday, it’s always the people that matters. And I’m thankful that I have my family here with me on my special day. 

I just want to take this opportunity to thank everyone that wished me for my birthday because I truly felt happy and blessed that I have so many people around me that appreciates and love me for who I am. Be it spending time with me, listening to my stories, making me smile, everyone and anyone have made my 22 years here a special one. Through all ups and downs, I found people or rather friends that I know that I can trust. I have found friends that I know will be there for me whenever I need someone. So thank you for making my life something really worth remembering. 

Now that I’m 22, I feel the pressure; the pressure of succeeding in life. Moving into adulthood doesn’t wait for anyone because it’s bound to happen sooner or later. But now that it’s getting closer by the second, I’m afraid. Frightened by the fact that I might not make it in this harsh reality which is the real world. But as I said many times before, I’m not the kind that backs down from a challenge. I strive on stress and get back up even after getting beat down for the 100th time. I just need to keep that mindset and I guess I will be fine. 😅

Anyway! I was very surprised that I got so much views for today. So I guess I must also thank the readers for their support. Be it a one time visit or a long time reader, I appreciate you reading or even liking or dropping a comment. Thank you guys! 😁

Today, I can’t seems to find any other words to describe my feeling except the word: blessed 

Isn’t she lovely

Well.. This is a post that was inspired by someone because of a song. An amazingly stunning image came to my mind when I heard that song and it was my favorite view of all; Sunrise. Be it shining from inbetween trees, creeping up from the ground or the ocean waves, it was always a sight to behold; A new day, a new beginning. Anyway! It’s an original picture that I took while traveling around Aussie😁

Because of my late sleeping habits, I haven’t been able to wake up in the early morning to see the sunrise here. Well.. The people here in Singapore would think that I have too much free  time to even do that in the first place. In the past, I have always love watching the stars shine. It’s like a million miles away from them but I am still able to see them shine. I wanted to study the different type of constellations and even buy myself a telescope if I get the chance to. But sad to say that even in Singapore, there wasn’t much constellations to see. So my dreams of spotting one was short-lived.

And comes one night where I just stared at the sky and looking out into the wide horizon. Sitting on a beach, where I can’t even remember why I was there in the first place and out of a sudden, I saw a new light shinning right in front of me. The warmth and the cozy feeling that I got from that light saw something that I couldn’t forget. I found a new favourite and it has a warm feel to it. There I thought to myself: what a beauty that I have been missing.

I was probably sad and depressed at the point of time but seeing the sunrise or rather feeling it was a game changer. And right till now, I still can’t forget that feeling that I got from that one morning.

What I meant to say is that, life isn’t always going to be bad or sad. Everyday is a new start, a new beginning. The world has showed us that, we just have to see it for ourselves to believe it. 😊 nothing is going to last forever be it happiness or sadness. It is part and parcel of our life. It’s how you see it and handle it that matters the most. Always love yourself before you love others. Because if you can’t even love yourself, then how would you expect others to love you.

Everyone have their own battles. Don’t give up. It’s only going to get better. So keep going.