I’m having a pretty bad day today and I can’t seemed to take my mind off it. Everyone keeps telling me that things will be better and keep going forward. I know that I should but sometimes, it’s just harder than it looks.
I encountered a rare opportunity today and I turned it down. Because of my beliefs and my determination to do better, I turned down this opportunity presented on a sliver platter. In my heart and mind, I believe I made the right choice. But deep down inside of me, I feel that there’s more than that; I feel that I was being played and it does not seem fair at all. All of a suddenly I feel like I’m a stranger all over again.
Lost and helpless. I randomly search for my answer and through the night searching, I can’t seems to find anything at all. What should my next move be in this long game of chess. Why are things turning out like this when I am feeling good about my life. You just have to kick me down again to see if I will be able to get up again.
And to count myself fortunate, I have always been able to get back up no matter. That’s part of who I am. I just don’t know if staying here is a waste of my time. And I don’t like it at all.
To be in a remote place, where the cold air blows, where there’s only darkness in the streets while you walked down that lonely path; it haunts you. But lucky for me, I had someone to comfort me at that time. Someone with a candle that walked beside me and let me know that I’m not alone.
I read one post online today and it struck me really hard. It was about this driver who was driving behind a driver who has just got his learner’s permit. He noticed a sign that indicated: “I’m learning and apologize for any delay caused.” Naturally, he was fine with it and was rather patient. Then he asked himself this tough question: “Will he be this patient if the person did not have that sign up.” And disappointingly, he knew his answer was a resounding no.
The lesson out of this was, everyone around is going through different kind of stuff in their everyday life. We don’t carry around signs like: “Recently divorce”, “I lost my child/someone close”, “I only have a few more months to live”, “feeling depressed”; all these signs around us. And would we really need to visualize those signs in order for us to be kind?
No. We don’t.
Just trying to be kinder to people. You will be surprised to see how it can help someone else’s day. Or maybe it can even help yours out.
Stranger or not, we deserve to be happy.