2017 in review

There’s so many changes, stories and things to be grateful for in 2017 and since it’s nearing the end of 2017, let’s have a short recap of how it went.

New working environment, new friends, started schooling, etc; these are some of the changes I experienced in 2017 which I regret to say that it’s not all perfect. Well let’s face it, it’s never going to be perfect but we shall not dwell into it. I started schooling in around June and had been very busy ever since. Imagine after a long day at work, you have to rush to school from your office and only to be home at 11:30pm. I have been surviving with that kind of schedule for 6 months and I have to admit that it is really very draining. It makes me wonder how the others before me done it.

I switched my working environment in the start of August as I wanted to seek for better opportunity elsewhere and frankly speaking, I have never regretted my decision. The things I do here is not as challenging as what I was doing previously but being here pushes me to my limit and that I have to admit. There are days where I can feel that my brain cells are being used up and I have to get home to recharge myself. This environment kind of suits me as I always love a challenge and would never back down till I succeed. However, I have to admit that there are days that I feel sucky about working there too but the thing about me is, I don’t think too much into it but rather, I like to prove that they are wrong to think that way of me.

All my life, being looked down by others, getting criticisms from people, every negative actions, shaped me into who I am today. But I have to say I’m not really that superhuman because I do have times when I feel weak and helpless as well. In times like these, I’m lucky that I have people I can rely on and pick me up in the darkest times. I’m glad I was raised in such environment; so that I can be strong even when the world wants me down, I just need to get back up and try again.

Now for the things that I’m grateful for in my life till now; my family, my friends and my special someone. Let’s start off with my friends. They say the older you get the lesser friends you have and well, I would say that’s true. It’s kind of sad but at the same time, I would say happy as well because these friends will be your closest bunch of people you have around you to get old with. They been through some of your good times and bad times with you, helping you along the way and just making everyday bearable at the very least. I’m happy to have met these bunch of people that helped me get through my 2017 because every moment with them makes me truly blessed and happy.

My family has been the backbone of my life because without them, I don’t think I will be where I am today and I’m not even taking this lightly. My parents have always been supportive of whatever I do and till today, I have always felt that unconditional love from them. They are always there to listen to my problems and sometimes criticizing me of my doings. Even though I get angry at them at times, I still take their teaching to heart and hope to improve myself as a person. Being the eldest child, sometimes I feel a lot of burden and stress on my shoulders and I have to say, most of it is self inflicted. I have the three most wonderful siblings that I can ever ask for. Sometimes we are noisy and love to make fun of each other but I can always count on them to catch me whenever I’m falling. We have each other’s back and despite each of our flaws, I am proud to have them as my brother and sisters.

2017 is a very special year for me and my special someone because it’s the year that we got engaged. 07/07/2017 would be a date that is forever engraved into our hearts where we made our eternal promise to each other, a promise that can and will stand to the test of time. My whole life changed when she entered and it is like the best thing that has happened to me. Everyday I feel blissful and blessed to have her in my life. She have that special ability to brighten up my day even when I’m down. She never fails to make me smile and the best thing about this is, she will never make me feel that I was ever alone in any situation. To have that level of support and confidence towards me, it’s something that I always treasure a lot.

I do get lots of questions like how do I know she is the right one. Well, we only dated for like a year before I proposed so what makes me so sure that she was the one I have been looking for. Don’t get me wrong, it is not always a bed of roses for us. We do have a few times that we are upset or angry but we have a golden rule that we are keeping till today; never let each other go to sleep sad or angry. I think this is an important part of our relationship, something I am proud to declare to the world. So back to the question at hand: what makes me so sure that she is the one. To me, proposing or rather promising our future together is never a tough decision to make. In her eyes, I see the perfect version of me and I thank the gods everyday for her. I can see myself coming home from a long day and being greeted with a warm smile or a hug because that’s how our relationship is. Whenever I look into her eyes, I feel like I can see our blissful future together holding hands till we are old. And those are just a few of the many reasons how I know she is the one.

All in all, 2017 is certainly a year to remember. From everything major to the small things that happened in these 365 days, I’m glad I have the right group of people; friends and family to go through with. Thanks for all the good and the bad times that I had in 2017, I will add this to my bag and carry on my journey.

Now, onwards to 2018…


Twenty Sixteen

LIke the most of us, 2016 has been full of ups and downs. Some of us experienced probably some of the happiest moments in their entire life while others might have a hell of a time surviving. Let’s just remember to keep loving and be kind to one another.

2016 is going down to be one of my most memorable and happiest time so far; the best being able to meet the love of my life but more about that later. In the beginning of the year, I was pretty much stuck with my direction in life. What do I do from here onwards? Am I really going to continue with this path? What is the best path for me to take right now? All these questions inside my head left unanswered and waiting for one day when it just pops right in. It was full of uncertainty and changes with people coming in and out of my life, things happening one after another and the stress of trying to keep up with life itself.

Working as a financial planner does have it perks where I can organize my time accordingly and commission is pretty good I have to admit. However, my passion died down along with the issues I faced at that point in time. I started putting my passion elsewhere and that was to be a tutor. This will have to go down as one of the best decision that I made for myself as my passion or rather ‘the fire within me’ lit up when I was teaching. With every student I have, with every lesson that I taught, seeing them grow and improve lesson by lesson, is something rewarding to me and may I say one of my proudest moments in my life. Be it when you received a thank you message, a present, or just a simple smile can make my day a whole lot better. One of the most memorable student that I taught have to be this primary 4 boy.

When I first took on this role as his tutor, I have to admit that I have no idea how do I even begin. There was no foundation and things weren’t looking all that pleasant at all. We struggled together to find the best way for him to learn and study. Fair enough, through all those hard work and effort we put in together, he improved from a 30 plus student to a 74 marks student for his end of year examinations. Seeing that smile on both his mother and his face, I felt that all the tough times were all worth it; all of that in exchange for that one single moment. It reminded me of the time when I had tuition for my A-maths; 32 marks to 76 by the end of the year. It just felt extra special when I know that I changed someone’s life for the better.

Soon, my career took a turn for the better when I was offered a job at a bank and it really helped as I was at that point in time where I have no idea what direction am I suppose to head to. It was a compliance role and I am still enjoying the thrill of a challenging job. There were times where it is stress and tiring, but I knew that I just have hold on and things will fall into place. I have the pleasure of meeting a bunch of colleagues that made my everyday in the office a happy one and still thankful of all the care and concern they have been showing since day 1.

2016 was a year of romance for me when I have dated for quite a while and it just did not feel particularly right for me. That was until I met her. She brought the smiles into my life without much effort and can always put up with my weirdness or uniqueness which I like to call it. Have you ever feel that you don’t have to pretend to be anything or anyone and he/she just love you for who you are. That’s true love my friends. Nothing in the world feels better than knowing that you found the love of your life.

From her constant encouragements, loving messages, hugs and kisses to the serious situation when we can openly talk about our feelings, anything and everything felt better when you are with the right one. Things are just that simple. It makes me feel stupid feeling the need to hide my feelings in my past relationships. I am truly blessed and delighted that I got to meet someone so amazing like her.

That will be the summary of my 2016 as I included most of my most happening moments this year. Ushering in the new year with the people I surround myself with will be the happiest I have ever felt in a very long time. To think that everything just flew past us again, I am a year older next year. Time to be wiser, do what I know I can do best and show the world what I can do. Embrace 2017 and hope that things continues to run smoothly.

Thank you for those that I met, those that helped me, those that embraced me, those that advised me, those that have been there for me and those that love me. Without you, there would have never be me. 

Onwards… Time to start off a new page in my book. Onwards to 2017.

My next chapter

A look back to how my year went.

Frankly speaking, it’s not all about fun and games and I guess I learnt that the hard way. Like most, I loved, laughed, smiled, cried, sulked for most of my 2015.

I thought that this year was going to mean something; something great. With everything building up from 2014, it’s hard for me not to expect things to be better. But like always, they always have a way to prove that you’re wrong. I spent a good New Years with the ones I love and I cherish that moment. I love that I get to spend the start of my 2015 with the ones that I love and cherish the most.

Then came my first heartbreak. Well… I have literally no words for it. It’s… The most painful, sad and tearful journey of my life. I was down, down to the extreme end and I thought that I might die somehow. But as you know, time heals all wounds. Just that some wounds might need to take a little longer.

My army life came to an end half way through the year and I was pretty ecstatic that it’s all over. Another milestone completed but one thing is for sure, I really miss the people I met and helped me throughout my army life. They are really a bunch that I hope that I can treasure for a long time.

And as you guys probably know, I went for a road trip in Australia and I had the time of my life there. It was a 25 days road trip stretching from Brisbane all the way down to Melbourne and I miss every single minute of it. One of the highlight of 2015. I miss that place the minute I flew back to Singapore. So I hope that I can visit there soon again. Everything was an adventure, something that I cannot and won’t ever forget.

I started my first unofficial full time job. Well.. There’s a bit of uncertainty in it. But I can tell you that I love what I’m doing. ☺️ it wasn’t a nice smooth sailing ride but I got through it and now I’m an official financial planner!

And to end it off, there’s a one week trip to Bangkok with my colleagues and I truly enjoyed every single minute of it. It let me take my mind off stuff and enjoy myself while I was there. It’s like I left my worries and troubles all back in Singapore. I realised how much I love traveling even though it’s just nearby.

Now on to 2016. 

The countdown to 2016 was a rather peaceful and relaxing one. As I look out my window to see fireworks filling up the night sky. I didn’t want to spend it with anyone because I think that I should be alone for it to tell myself that it’s perfectly fine to be alone. So I sat inside my room and watch as the skies fill up with lights as we welcome a new year.

Above was just what I could remember of my 2015 and of course there’s much much more to say. But for all that, I just want to say that I’m way passed it. What happened to me in 2015, happened. For all the good and the bad times I had in 2015, I’m just bringing everything along with me. Next stop, 2016.

As I grow older, I realised that the baggage that we carry doesn’t get smaller; it grows bigger and bigger. As we walk on, every memory that is precious, no matter good or bad is stored in that baggage of ours. But time doesn’t stop and we shouldn’t as well. Moving on… 

Next chapter.